some thing~ some day

someday someone is going to thank you for letting me go~
=) this is true`
i will proof to u that u will regret~

but you always make me miss you and your silly randon texts
those texts that u will send to me at any time
and there for me whenever i need you
why now i needed u so much
but why you not here???
what could i say more?
this is the destiny between me and u.. rite?

this thingy is made from my mei(jacelyn)
hahhahaha.. actually i don know why she suddenly do for me also
thanks mei~ i kinda suprise honestly..
hahahahha... evendo i don know what is ur reason doing this for me..
memory maybe?

this one le~
is from my lovely sweetie de.. XDXD
she come back from KL
not me buy thing for her
but she buy thing for meXD
still got another one is bracelet..
hehez.. tat day i almost lost this thing.. honestly..
i almost cry out too~
XD of caus will cry la.. my sweetie give me de le..
cannot lost ar.. if lost le.. count as lost friendship le.. =)
sweetie.. thanks ...

this one le.. is bought from my teacher from cameron de..
cute little strawberry~
XD shud buy real de for me to eat ma.. hahahahha
tamaknya~

this book~
if you could see me now-by cecelia ahern
its a nice story book honestly..
i was kinda addicted to it already...
it was about a guy like an angle beside you~
at first can't see him
but when she can she him
this guy is leaving
hurt rite? aiks.. don will cry or not read this story book~ XDXD
i read the PS i love you until i cry le.. XDXD too touch le honestly..
you know how much i miss you?
wish i could send this msg to himmm..
but~ i do not have his number anymore..
isnt it good?? i totally lost contact with him edi...
sorry to say~ i really miss him alot..
aiks.. but i control myself edi..
now study first
evendo he break the promise..
but i wont~
i will still get good result as i said~ i promise u =)

the camp?? XD

this isnt what i want..
haiz.. just came back from the torturing camp~ when we reach the camp.. then jiu tiok scold le.. aiks~ reach there already need to start to marching... ish... at least let us rest first ma.. haiz.. wake up early in the morning~
then... after marching~ we go into our room~ we all been divided into different room~ then~ we go to the hall~ then start la.. the speech from the ppl there.. aiks.. after that..
been divided into groups of colours~ and i got into the yellow group~ our group named "ketawa" hhahahahha because kuning alphabet start from k.. since my group love ketawa so much~ hahahah then i become the head of the group~ aiks.. i hate to become the head.. cause lots of stuff to care about...
then ~ we have our first thing that is singing the song of warisan~ then we have our lunch (finally~~) ahahhahah then... we start our outdoor activities~ we went for outdoor activities... aiks... tired after those stuff~ then at night
i become the MC~ hahahhaha * it was my first time being a MC~ haahahahha quite nervous.. but some ppl say i did a good job... XD not bad not bad...
then... we had a suprise for yeye and mei mei~ they celebrate birthday for them~ the birthday on jun de.. i was so touch~ me and mei mei cried.. OMG.. really touch~ how i wish to have this big suprise~ but kinda scary honestly.. to have a big suprise like this..
aiks..then went to room at 12 something.. sleep at 1 something.. then woke up at 5.. aiks.. its so damn tired... then have our obstacles activities~ its really so damn hard.. but neway.. i love it.. honestly..
=) start to love this kind of game evendo its exhausting. LOL.. =)
then din go to school today and tomorrow cause of eye sore and muscle pain.. XD
im gonna miss alot of class~ but i will study at home too~
PS: back to study~ BYE...

i know im not the one~

我知道。。　我不是哪个你想念的那个人。。。
可是。。。　你一至都是我为一想念的那个人。。
当你不管这个。。。
如果　你想念的那个人是我的话。。
那。。。　宝贝，我也很想你。。　
你还知的吗？你说过的。。
宝贝。。。　

别告诉他，我还想他。。。
因为我知道他爱的，他想的那个人。。　

不是我～

my holiday program~

this is me and her at 101 premier~ ahahahhathis one is taken at spring toilet~ LOL.. cause at spring hardly could take picture.. cause ...later everyone will look at u.. XDXD
this is the suprise i gave her~ sweetie=)
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this dog is real cute de.. at first quite afraid of it.. but slowly... fall in love with her ki~
hahahhaha

hahahahha... having lots of fun on the
last week of my holiday~
hehez my sweetie came back from KL ...
at first my mum wasnt agree that i go out with her
but... suprisingly..
after my mum meet her..
hahhaha.. i seems like go out with her EVERYDAY..
ahahahha... first day went to KBOX
then... sing songs lo~ LOL...
honestly i really enjoy alot..
thanks sweetie <3
aiks... the time pass so fast.. really got a bit miss u liao~
haiz..
im so sorry that i cant an wei u eh.. hahahha
aiks.. im not as lihai as u.. can play piano~ aiks..
but.. im always here k sweetie~ <3 take care ya...

plus~ i think you must be thinking this sweetie is my bf~
hahahhaha... i don have bf la.. this sweetie is my sweet friend lai de
<3

[i need...]

[i need u~]
i need someone to understand my feeling right now~
i feel so suffer... i suddenly feel that im so lonely~
i suddenly feel like my life is empty
my heart is empty
i suddenly don have someone to complain bout my life~
bout my unsatisfied~
i only can cry by myself~
its hurt do u know that?
i really need someone to understand me right now....
after he leave me~ i got no one already....
i only got u... could u please lend me your ears or shoulder?
just for me to cry on and jsut for me to talk to?
cant i have someone better than him?
why i couldnt find one guy that is just like him or treat me even good~
i just need someone...
and why are u not here??

who can understand my feeling?
who can be my side for me to cry on~im tired...
mum scold non-stop... i need a peace...
i studied so hard but no one ever say anything~
u tot i go library to play???
u tot im not tired after studying at the library the whole day?
when i reach home..
u keep on complain and complain non stop~
says that i din do this and that
i know u are tired
but im also!!
why she is not been scolded??
why only me??
because she got give money?but me...
i'm spending ur money??
are you thinking that.. i should do all this stuff?
im also tired k??
i need rest it my holiday!!
im tired studying.... i study so hard..did anyone understand what i wan??
i cant stop crying do u know that?
when u scold me.. i feel like crying~ its late night already..
but im still here.. u know why? cause i cant SLEEP...
haiz... today my baobei ling take out the bear..
the bear that i have kept it already
i don feel like looking at that bear anymore...
cause i don wan myself crying.... =( i hate it...
but it came out.. i told her, keep it back.. i don wan to see it!
she suddenly asked me~ why you don wan to see it ar? its so cute a... i like it bo...
i suddenly blank! i don know how to answer her..
tell her.. because that was given by the person that hurt me before?
or shud i say it not cute..

then... i just say... if u like, u take ba... =(
she look at me and say~ i don wan.... cause u don like it... u don wan to see it?? i keep it back~
i almost cry... but then i control... i don wan kids look at me crying~

it just a memory~

it just a memory
why should i care so much
for such a memory that hurt me so much?
why? im really stupid
crazy and out of my mind~
did i get any benefit from all of this??
did i get any goods from this?
i suffered
i know
i'm hurt, i know
but
do he know that??
till now~
i still cant accept the truth that he have girlfriend~
ok.. i was LYING to myself
he have!! stop giving yourself LAME excuses~
(but i just wanna know who is that LUCKY girl, the girl that should be me)
that should be me by justin bieber~
that songs.. reminds me alot~
hmmmm....
i was actually almost can let him go~
because there's another guy that say he like me~
but... suddenly~
he's lost.. he did sms me sometimes..
but he doesnt seems to like me anymore
JENNY CHEW
stop putting HOPE inside your dream~
cause~
its just a dream... u forget??
<3<3<3

no ONE understand how i feel~

no one ever understand how i feel~
how izit feel like when ur closest friend hide things from u...
how izit feel like when you heard that your closest friend say
she just feel like wanna have boyfriend?
something like~ SO??
how izit feel like when you are chatting with her..
she just like not listening to you~
you ask her question she say ok
when you tell her things she say don know??
how izit feel like when your closest friend dont understand u~
let me tell you~
how it feel~
it feel hurt when friend doesnt tell you she's having a boyfriend
its even pain when your closest friend doesnt appreciate love
its seems like she never understand how you feel, when I'm been hurt by a guy~
its break your heart when your friend are not listening to you~
when you are talking to her..
it squeeze your heart into juice when your closest friend dont understand how u feel ..
sometimes~ maybe it was me thinking too much
it was me caring too much
it was me love you too much
you know why i love my friend so much??
this is because
when i was hurt~ they was there for me keep on consult me
thats why i love them~
but
maybe~ it was me love them too much~
i should stop caring~
stop thinking
stop loving them
cause no one will understand why you did that~
and no one will appreciate what you have done~

I'm SORRY
it was my fault~

first day to library?

today was the first time i go to library for revision~
erm
how shud i describe it?
fun!! ya.. exactly.. FUN.. hahahhahaha
we did our revision too. lOL..
while chit chatting after a few hours of silence... XD
and here.. we come with VAIN-ing time!!
hahahahahah.. keep on take picture after come back from the toilet.. LOL
don know why also.. hahahahhaha
here are few pictures for u to enjoy.. LOL

this two girl is spot-checking my cellphone~
hahahahhaa..
wanna check weather i got bf or not?
oh don worry~
i don have.. hahahaha
( luckily i deleted those memories~ hehez)

this girl~ come here to sms-ing??

hahahahhaha~ so do I... they say no hp..
i still can sms till so song..
hahahahha
sms-ing with my sweetie and my darling.. hahahaha

u see her respond?? LOL.. aiks... am i too close? hahahahhaha
scare tiok her.. hahahhaha

eh~ no le.. this one is even closer..
LOL... this is really too VAIN.. hhahahhaha

[ I love YOu] hehe.. never do this..
so.. have a try?? XDXD
sweetie.. next time.. wanna try with u.. hahahahah

can't u see i'm studying?? XDXD

when we were about to leave~
ivon was using my iphone pressing this and that
SUDDENLY~
she pressed the songs~
and she dont know how to off it.. hahahahha
welll.. EVERYONE is looking at us..
hahahahhaha.. and SHHHHH... hahhahahahah
after off it.. ivon show his innocent face.. hahahah
i really kolien her ar.. XDXD
hahahhahah~ then we went to fetch her sister..
sitting in her new car?
at the back there.. hahahahha
camwhore again both of us.. XDXD

haahhahahha~ i love this picture the most.... XDXD

ps: tomorrow going to library again..
but i don think is as fun as this if i go alone.. hmmmm