my christmas 2010

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it was christmas eve :(
i'm working full shift that is from 9.30am to 11.30pm :(
its so tiring... nevermind.. i work with him until 7 nia..
then went to my sister shop wait her to finish work.. at 11.55pm then baru close shop..
spring was full of people and traffic.. everyone were pushing outside the spring..
suddenly i lost my sister :(
i was all alone..
i wanna cry that time..
but i control myself since its christmas night..
waiting the countdown start..
i countdown myself..
this feeling is even worse than ever! i hate this feeling..
no one sms me except steven :(
i don know where sweetie go.. haiz.. she is countdown happily with the others..
she was so busy and so do i..
was so busy with work..
din sms.. when i countdown until 1, i make a wish to god...
i wish you will be with me next time when i countdown :(
if santa really works, i really wish i could have someone now :(
then i have to make a fake smile and wish my sister and her bf merry xmas..
i was actually feel very unhappy.. haiz..
then reach home just sleep.. because was tired..
the next day wake up at 8.45am and go for work..
start work at 9.30 also.. when he reach, his body were red..
he was allergie and sick and fever..
i kinda sim tia see him like that actually..
i just don know why.. haiz.. and my leg was so pain
i called my mum since i have been not talking with her since her birthday 7th dec..
but we only talk not reach 1 minute..
haiz.. i don know what happen to her..
she make my heart break actually.. haiz..
then.. just now fly tell me that he got gf..
i don know why i am so automatically cry..
i hate it you know..
i hate you so much.. why cant u disappear in my life? :('

it's finally over! =D

i am so happy when i could say! I FINISH MY SPM ALREADY!!
its been so tiring because half study half work..
but working with someone like this make me not that tired! ><
because i got someone to make jokes with :)
but soon~ he's leaving ><
aiks.. left 11days same work with him :(
or mayb less than that..
cause i'm having off today so as him for the next day..
i don know why i care so much about him..
i hate this feeling..
it makes me feel so confusing!
why don u straight forward with me?
hahahhaha as if he really like me ><
u also one of them aiks...
never mind~ what i can do is work now :) all the best!

going off to work soon :)

i like this picture alot..
i seems like getting prettier and prettier..
hahahahahah xD vain...
going off to work so soon~
i haven finish my exam i had to work edi..
seems to be so tiring..
but what to do.. all i can is work only..
to earn more money..
i need money for my vacation and also my car license..
hahahahah... this few day still having mood swing about my sister and also about love..
haiz.. how i wish i can love by someone that much ><
i always can't find the one that love me so much..
i'm so jealous that..
when can i have those sweet time?
haiz... because of thinking of this..
it remind me of HIM..
i hate to think about HIM so much..
the way he hurt me..
i will never forget it..
this few day, his ex keep on find me..
remind me more of him..
haiz...
i avoid sms is all because of that..
make me feel like sms him..
and don wan to sms him..
its so tiring..
i want to stop thinking bout it and wan to work..
all the best to me ba~
haiz..

that day i accidentally confess to him ><
i so scare he avoid me..
but he din :(
that make me confuse so much..

mum not in kuching, but sweetie did

how i wish that person was you~ :(